Showing posts with label vampire. Show all posts
Showing posts with label vampire. Show all posts

Saturday, July 07, 2012

(RE-updated) WHY FAN(g)S? (a psychological dive into the global vampire phenomenon)

The ghostly glow of an evening mist dragging like a dying thing across the barren street that echoes with the lonely fallen steps of a solitary morsel. The melodic clacks give away a rising tension as their tempo increases; the urgency in the stride reflecting the racing of their pulse. A hushed murmur drifts by like a lingering thought—the already phantom memory of its call burning into every crevice of their terror-soaked mind—and a shadow washes over the towering and foreboding walls of the nearby building; the series of structures lining the night-bathed city quickly becoming a cage of iron and stone that closes in with every panicked breath. From behind: a chuckle—-the unmistakable tune of a predator's victory made all the more dreadful coming from an all-too-human mouth. Overcome with fear, the once-lone wanderer makes a mad-dash away from the voice, ignoring the ache of exertion and the burning of oxygen-starved lungs as they whimper and fight to form the words to call for help. Despite the effort, the futility of the attempt is made evident as the shadow falls upon them—consuming them in a whirlwind of darkness and enveloping them in a hungry abyss—and they finally find voice enough to shriek as the glow of inhuman eyes narrow on their own and a pair of glistening and dripping gore-stained fangs break past the veil.



Though the legends and myths that have existed since the dawning of human civilization always point towards the certain suffering and death of their victims, the popularity of vampires and creatures tied to their tales have flourished. Beyond that, the legends have warped and evolved to take monstrous and demonic beings that were in no way human and (more to the point) attractive in ANY way, shape, or form and turning them into a being of sensuality and beauty that has only served to take an already-compelling icon and add the element of sex and attraction to the mix. Despite the terror associated with the legends and the obvious dangers that such a being could present to our kind, the world's collective obsession with vampiric beings has escalated to points that define genres of media entertainment, motivate fashion and lifestyles, and even shape entire groups and communities.

But none of this actually boils down to the "WHY" of the phenomenon. What is it about these beings that so aggressively draws us in and sinks its metaphorical fangs into our jugulars and refuses to release.

Why are we so inclined to be fans of the fangs?

Past the inherent and two-dimensional fascination with the powerful and lustful creatures dwells a truth that, ironically enough, defines humanity. We, as people—as weak, soft, terrified, and mortal beings—will forever be compelled to idolize and focus on figures and symbols that our ever-growing minds hope will reveal some secret to their success in living, loving, and liberating themselves from the mundane and redundant. When we're young, we look up to parents, older siblings, fascinating members of the local community, and, of course, the characters we grow up loving that perpetually illustrate strength and integrity in television, movies, books, and comics. We dream and strive for the day when we'll find ourselves free of our youthful weaknesses and be free of doubt and confusion… but that day never comes. Months turn to years and then decades and, as we fall into the ever-famed adulthood that we've dreamt so long would mystically provide us with clarity and understanding of life, the universe and everything we discover we're just as frail and just as oblivious, but now cursed with the capacity to UNDERSTAND just how oblivious.

And so, with no magical age dawning upon us with rays of god-like understanding, we forever leap-frog from idol and icon in an ever-constant-yet-insatiable hope to finally feel that we're greater than we are.

Because, in the end, we're still only human.

Only human!

Our subconscious minds see the futility in the search for that one man or woman who can be a guru to cure us of our limitations, and they turn to the beyond; turn to that which transcends humanity; turn to mythology.

An obsession with our limited longevity and a fear of what lies beyond this life has been a motivator for theory-upon-theory-upon-theory. Death represents an inescapable oblivion—an eternal NOTHING—that eats away at our cores because, when all is said-and-done, "nothing" means EXACTLY that to us: nothing. How does one define something if there's nothing to define? We experience a cornucopia of REAL and TANGIBLE that to imagine nothing—no sight, no sound, no smells or tastes, nothing to feel, and no mind to recognize the void—is an incomprehensible notion. And if the history of mankind has taught us nothing else, it's that we HATE that which we cannot comprehend. We assign titles to everything to convince us we hold power over it and try to define the inner workings of this, that, and everything with a limited knowledge of what it is we're trying to define. And so, in an effort to combat the confusion and fear associated with death, we fabricate alternate realities that exist for us beyond this lifetime; theories of heavens or hells or limbos or hauntings or, rather than living an eternity elsewhere, being born as a new person and starting the cycle anew.

All because death and our impending nothing TERRIFIES us.

Enter the vampire. A being whose existence is defined almost unanimously with immortality; a being that represents no need for fear of what lies beyond. And though this eternity relies on a willingness to destroy the lives of others, the natural need to survive motivates us to take that step. If a building is on fire, the occupants' need to survive outweighs the sympathy of others' needs, and it's an all-too-common event that situations like that find people trampled and trapped so that others have the leverage to survive. Is it really such a stretch to see us as so monstrous as to literally steal the lives of strangers to sustain our own?

And what of those who find themselves at the bottom of the stampede? What of those who find themselves trapped within the inferno because somebody wanted to survive enough to lock away the threat of death with them still at risk? What do you think they would give for a body that doesn't break underfoot or the strength to take down any obstacle?

Enter the vampire. A being whose supernatural abilities make even the most able-bodied star athletes look like a joke in comparison. A being who exists in legends as capable of easily holding their own against armies and able to tear down buildings with their unbreakable claws. A being whose speed and reflexes make them a nearly uncatchable and un-killable force for any who stand in their way. A being who sees the threat of those who intimidate them in their everyday life as nothing more than an insignificant creature; no more dangerous or threatening than a newborn puppy—blind and defenseless and oblivious.

A being greater than man or beast but, at the same time, a enigmatic hybrid of the two.

A being capable of communicating and controlling and even BECOMING the animals that we eagerly and desperately struggle to understand.

A being that is not only unafraid of the darkness, but REVEL in it!

All the limitations and shortcomings of man encompass the strengths and traits of the creatures we idolize, because, at the root of it all, we crave a life that's free of fear and uncertainty.


And so we eagerly consume movies and literature and music and any-and-all forms of media and society that pertains to vampires so that we can lose ourselves in that tranquility. Men bellow and cheer as Blade and Selena take on hordes of the undead using vampire strength and cunning and women melt into the steely grip of Lothaire and Edward and Lestat in their paranormal romance novels because they represent total freedom from the normal and a sense of security (as well as cheering on Blade and Selena as they take on hordes of the undead; sorry, guys, but you gotta share the badass whether-or-not you're willing to dive into the romance).

Vampires are, body and mind and drive, what we can NEVER be, and that limitation—that hunger for a taste of what we'll never have—keeps us coming back for more of the fan(g)tastic creatures.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

AUTOBIOGRAPHICAL MOTIVATION FOR DREAMERS:

Since publishing Crimson Shadow  with Crushing Hearts and Black Butterfly, I’ve been making up for a lot of writing and little submitting…

I first started ACTIVELY writing—that is to say, with the intention of actually doing something with it other than putting it on the fridge beside my report card—when I was about 16 (so about nine years, now). In that time I’ve done an excellent job of whipping out manuscript-after-manuscript, story-after-story, and concept-after-concept with every intention of using all of them as some sort of portfolio in a career as an author. And in those nine years I have queried less than a dozen agents and moved one—that’s somewhere in the vicinity of 1/6th (that’s less than 17% of nine years worth of work; equating to ABOUT 1.5-out-of-nine years PROPERLY spent on my literary endeavor and probably a few too many invested in mathematics that I’ll never make full use of).

Fortunately for me, I’ve got my Meggers and the combined efforts of her family and my own. Now, writers, as a general rule, are a lazy, whiny bunch, and I’m of the belief that not a thing—not one goddam thing—that any literary mind produced would’ve made it to the shelves if it weren’t for a loved one with a sharp implement behind them forcing them to follow through with the aftermath of the writing process.

And my stubborn ass has *counts on fingers and nods to each digit* yea, SIX loved ones lighting their own individual fires under my too-wide backside. So nearly a full decade later and I get something from a scribbled-up manuscript and into print in LESS-THAN two weeks (adding that to the three weeks it took to write & the two weeks of editing and we’re looking at a little less than two months to go from NOTHING to an in-print novel; by that standard I should have AT LEAST 45 FULL publications [and that’s allowing myself a month-or-so between projects to rest]).

(Just for the record, my using basic math to illustrate my INSANE levels of laziness is making me just a little sick…)

Anyway, with a fiancee, her parents, my mother, and my grandparents all persistently poking & prodding for me to do something, I’ve kicked my ass into overdrive. So, for the past three-to-four months before Crimson Shadow’s become public, I’ve been increasing my efforts to turn an obsessive hobby into a career. In that time, I’ve planned & “sketched” a sequel for Death Metal, edited & submitted a short story to an online publication, pitched several comic book scripts, and published a prequel to Crimson Shadow called "Wicked Paints". In an effort to do my own marketing (what has got to be the hardest part of this whole writing thing) I’ve gone from two-or-three social networking sites to more than 10 and worked inadvertently with some of the coolest & most-brilliant literary minds I’ve had the fortune to encounter. This increase in networking has also, in turn, introduced me to countless other like-minded enthusiasts of literature & mythology.

To sum it up, these past few months of being active towards my dream have been some of the happiest in my life!

I know in a lot of ways this sounds like a simple “yay me” sort of post, and I guess in some regards that’s the case (hell, I’m more surprised to see me pulling it off than anybody else) but a lot of it comes down to something I noticed upon a period of recent self-reflection:

All of us—that’s you, too—have hopes and dreams and aspirations that we spend countless and embarrassing hours staring off into nothingness imagining; painting such vivid pictures of “the happiness that could be” but always being too damn chicken-shit to make step #1 to achieving (for fuck’s sake: NINE YEARS!!). The point is, scary as that first step is, you gotta just do it; I promise you that it’s the hardest one to make and, after you do, your own instincts will carry you there. If it’s something you’re passionate about, then chances are it’s something your also decent at!
So don’t be a chicken-shit—sitting on piles-upon-piles-upon-piles of your time and effort that you refuse to show to the world—‘cuz I want you to know that it’s worth it to take that step!

PS - Check me out at the following (don’t be surprised to see a link to this site on here, this is going up on multiple pages):


Facebook (personal) ; Facebook (Death Metal page) ; Facebook (Creatures of Darkness page)

Google+ (personal) ; Google+ (Vampires & Other Creatures of Darkness page)

Blogspot

Tumblr

Twitter ; Vampirefreaks ; MySpace

(there are several other, lesser-known sites that I roam about in. If you frequent any other social networking sites and wonder if I do too, simply inquire—I either do and will gladly share or I don’t and will most likely join.)

Or hit me up on AIM: “VisceralVices”

Friday, November 11, 2011

FIRST POST (AN INTRODUCTION OF MYSELF AND MY WORK)

First and foremost, this is me in all my not-so-photogenic glory (the picture itself was taken by my fiancee, Megan, and then tinted red and animated by a stranger--I apologize if the person responsible for editing the piece happens upon this blog--on Vampirefreaks). My name (as the gif implies) is Nathan, and I am an up-and-coming fantasy/horror author with over three full manuscripts for a vampire series, a slew of short stories (both related & unrelated to the aforementioned series), three original comic books with at least three issues scripted each, and one current publication, Death Metal, available to the public in both paperback and digital copy for the Kindle.

Synopsis for Death Metal:
"Life was good and the future was bright for up-and-coming heavy metal band, Bloodtones. With a steadily-growing fan-base, the five members looked forward to a promising career in the music industry. And then things went to hell. Soon after a strange sighting, the Bloodtones' lead singer, Bekka, finds herself capable of the impossible and in mortal danger from otherworldly forces that catch even the non-human members of the band off guard. With their rock-solid future rapidly crumbling before their eyes, the Bloodtones find themselves struggling for not only their music... but their very lives."
5-star review from a reader:
"Scooped this up and it is a VERY good read from a solid up and coming new author. I found him through the book Immortal Night Vampire Series: The Anthology Of Vampire Books Volume 1 and after reading the first part I wanted to get more. He keeps the story moving and the characters are extremely real and readable. I'm impressed. You don't typically get this level of quality from a "new kid" but you can tell he spent the time, effort and money to have this come out flawless. Very good stuff. I'll be looking for more from him."

Below are some "sketches" of the characters from the novel (note - these were created as visuals for Death Metal's sequel--in progress--on Tektek, an avatar generator associated with an online group. While I'm not a member of the group, I use this program to help me visualize characters that I intend to use in the writing process):
(Clockwise from top):
Will - Drums - Vampire ; Derek - Bass - Magician ; Bekka -  Vocals & keyboards - Possessed ;
David - Lead guitar - "Therion" (werewolf) ; Brian - Rhythm guitar - Human (and angry)
Outside of writing, I spend my time reading (novels & comics/manga), immersing myself in movies, listening to music, and enjoying a select few television series. While I don't necessarily indulge in these things evenly, they make up my major interests:
  • Reading (literature): I'm pretty hard to please when it comes to literature (probably one of the leading reasons I've decided to be a writer) but when I DO find a book/series that I enjoy I immerse myself fully and completely in it. My top 2 in terms of books/series (to date) are:
  1. Nancy A. Collins' "Sunglasses After Dark" series.
  2. Rob(yn) Thurman's (the author prefers to publish under the name "Rob Thurman" but has admitted that the name is an abbreviation) "Nightlife" series.
  • Reading (comics/manga): While I'm not entirely proud to admit it, I'm more likely to fly through a comic book/graphic novel or manga than I am to read a book cover-to-cover (something in the merging of the written word, intriguing plot devices, and art just has a way of grabbing you by the ol' eyeballs and not letting go). While I'd be hard pressed to mention all my favorites, let's (for the time being, at least) settle for the top 5:
  1. Deadpool - My ALL TIME FAVORITE comic book character (from ANY of the publishers/universes). Deadpool/Wade Wilson/"the merc with a mouth"--one of Marvel's #1 favorite characters (second only to Spider-Man from time-to-time)--is a rare example of a character that makes insanity work FOR them (the use of multiple-colored thought boxes often serve as a means of having the character carry on three-way conversations with himself). The character has made such an impact on me that I have a partially-finished tattoo of him (my only tattoo of a character not associated directly with my personal work) on my left leg.
  2. 30 Days of Night - Written by Steve Niles and illustrated by Ben Templesmith, this is possibly one of the best horror comic series ever written. Niles' story-telling coupled with Templesmith's extraordinary ability to create gritty & complex images work in ways that are comparible only to a culinary masterpiece (yes, I'm that much of a fatass).
  3. Sin City - A balls-to-the-wall series straight from the imagination of comic book legend, Frank Miller, Sin City is an example of a comic series in which any--and I do mean ANY--panel from any book can be used as a unique piece of wall art. The amount of detail (both seen and unseen) is breathtaking and (for me, at least) makes it hard to drag my vision off of one panel to take in the next. 
  4. Hellboy - Like Sin City, Hellboy is a legendary product that couples stunning visuals with spectacular stories. However, where Sin City is gorgeous in its use of black-and-white imagery coupled with heavily shadowed panels, Hellboy creator Mike Mignola's art is incredibly rich with vibrant colors that look as though a series of colored Sharpie markers had been used to bring life to each geometric panel.
  5. Priest - While you might not be aware of the Korean manga (known as "manhwa") by talented artist and writer, Hyung Min-woo, you MAY be aware of the US film "adaptation" by the same title. While Min-woo WAS involved in the writing of the film, the 2011 movie was in no way related to his comic. While the film is set in a post-apocalyptic future in which superhuman priests fight hordes of strangely quadrupedal vampires, the beautifully-illustrated comic series featured a demonically possessed priest who traveled the American Wild West in search of a demonic entity that had killed his lover.
"Priest" manhwa (left) & "Priest" movie (right)
I'm feeling like something got lost in translation here...
  • Because my writing is very visually-driven, I'm usually picturing a scene as it would appear on a theater screen as I write it. This being said, movies are an important element to both my art and my life. My top 3 favorite movies/sagas are:
  1. The Matrix trilogy & The Animatrix - When you take gnarly, post-hostile-robot-takeover, couple it with insane sequences of Kung Fu awesomeness and "guns. Lots of guns", you get one of the greatest movie concepts the world has ever experienced. Saturate all that badass-ness with heaping doses of groundbreaking special effects and enough theories of philosophy to help you ace a college-level course... well, what's left to do besides drool all over yourself?
  2. The Underworld saga - What happens when a microbiologist decides to write a "Romeo & Juliet"-style script about leather-clad, gun-toting vampires and werewolves of such intense ferocity that it redefines a nation's view of the legend? Underworld, baby! For the record, the microbiologist in question just-so-happened to star in his own project as Raze, one of the movies' werewolf characters (and, yes, that IS his real voice).
  3. The Blade trilogy - A badass vampire-cum-vampire hunter with tattoos and a slew of weapons that would make The Matrix's Neo and The Underworld's Selene both weak in the knees. The second movie in particular, directed by my FAVORITE filmmaker, Guillermo del Toro, is still my favorite.
  • While I haven't been one for television lately, I recently came across three shows that I've been loyal in planting myself--week-after-week--on the couch with great, euphoric glee to watch:
  1. House - The greatest handicapped, pill-popping, sarcasm-dropping, ill-tempered doctor to ever grace a television screen.
  2. American Horror Story - It's on FX Wednesday nights at 10PM (EST). Watch it... a lot.
  3. Family Guy & American Dad - Two great shows for the price of one (or so I think). Seth MacFarlane is pretty much a comedy genius and these two programs are his masterpieces.
  • Who doesn't love music of some form or another? For me, silence is an enemy (ask anybody who hasn't been able to make me shut up) and, as a result, when I'm not listening to the television, I'm usually seen pinched between my headphones as they pour out some of my favorite tunes (top 5):
  1. Marilyn Manson - In the immortal words of the great Stan Lee: "'Nuff said".
  2. Aiden & William Control - Okay, so this IS technically TWO groups, but since the vocalist for Aiden IS William Control (Wil Francis), it's fair enough to put them into one group (my blog, my decision, my right, so there!).  While I can't write to their stuff, they both make excellent driving music!
  3. Alesana - Every time I think I've gotten over this hard rock/metal/"screamo" group, they come out with a new album that better incorporates their exotic and harmonious combination of melodic vocals and guttural growls.
  4. Kamelot - Sort of sad to bring up one of my favorite symphonic/operatic heavy metal groups. Within the past year, the band's vocalist, Khan, left the band. While it was thought to be due to anxiety and depression, it was recently confirmed that the decision was religious in nature. 
  5. Dir En Grey - I'm a funny sort of person. When I write, I'm so immersed in the words bouncing about in my head that, if I'm listening to anything with English words being spoken (music included), I lose concentration (unless I'm scripting a comic book, in which case I seem to function just fine with a playlist in any language). Since I can not very well write to NOTHING, I have taken to putting on foreign music, especially hard rock & heavy metal from Japan. Of all my favorite Japanese bands, however, Dir en Grey is, by far, my FAVORITE. Check out my collection of their awesomeness here.
So there you have it: an in depth and overly-intimate introduction to yours truly (see what I meant earlier when I said it's hard to shut me up). The above is pretty much me in a nutshell: a vampire-loving madman of literature driven by the twisted, the artistic, and all things in between. Hopefully you've had a fun time reading my first post (or, at the very least, enjoying all my purdy pictures.